O. M. G.

OMG OMG. You know this is big news because I would NEVER write OMG unless I was about to say something OMG worthy. And you will know what all the OMG-ing is about by the end of this post. But BEFORE I write about that, I am going to brag about my husband YET AGAIN. I know it’s annoying how charming he is, isn‘t it? Well anyway, I’ve been really bummed recently (which I have NO right to be) and I’ve been talking to him about how I really just want to travel and experience all these wild and crazy things and he’s always sooooooo supportive and soooo wonderful and even though I know we can’t afford to move anywhere or go anywhere right now my heart is always wanting to explore. But I truly feel like we will be able to do that someday, and for now…we are stuck here…which isn’t bad because besides the weather from hell we have in the summer, Fresno isn’t that bad. All our family is here and we just love them so. I don't think I would leave them if i could.

Well, now that’s off my chest Chance has been doing everything to make me feel like I get to do fun things…and he’s so sweet, he knows JUST what to do. I’ve been sick the last few days and today he said, “Babes, I think you just need some sunshine, (which I totally did), let’s go take a walk”
So we took a walk around Fig Garden which is one of my favorite places in Fresno and then he bought me a dress at J. Crew…I mean, seriously…it made my day. Is that vein? Probably. But he is sooooooo precious for wanting to do something nice for me. I just could squeeze his little face forever.

I couldn’t wait to wear it so I put it on right away because my friend Nikki was taking me to Cheesecake Factory.



Ok, now for my OMG news…DAVE MATTHEWS IS COMING TO FRESNO!!!!!!!!!! Did you hear ME?! Oh my freak…he is coming here, probably to see me. And guess what? Chance got us tickets before I could even ASK! If it wasn’t for Chance I would totally marry Dave. I mean we have such history Dave and I…just look at us...



Here’s me and Chance out on the town 3 years ago. This picture was taken before we were dating and Chance sent it to me and I thought it was weird because it’s actually a picture of the two of us but he still cut out a picture of his head and stuck it over his existing head in the picture. I guess he just wanted to be with me THAT bad.



And lastly...

I have a crush on this girl and I am SOOOOOOO mad she got kicked off idol tonight. Seriously...I'm obsessed with her...i love her cute face and her weird voice.



OH! and P.S.S.-Check out the new stuff we got goin' on at the photography blog. chancejamesblog.com

Hair DOs...

Because No Hair Should Have to be a DON'T.

I've been getting into lots of crafty things, and I'm loving me some handmade clips. Fabric flowers are just so precious. I'm also loving the song called "Electric Feel" by MGMT, I could groove all night to that song. Expect more handmades to come very, very soon.

What have you done for your soul today?

I know, deep question huh? But the question has been haunting me for the last week. Certain personal events that have recently taken place have really made me think about my soul. Like, what do I do for my soul everyday? How do I wake myself up and live? How do you?

I don’t think we are careful enough with our time, our efforts. I think we’ve become lazy and comfortable We would rather watch T.V. instead do something for our heart.

When I want to get to know myself or experience something “soul moving” I usually journal and pray. Sometimes I drive and listen to music really loud, sometimes I read…sometimes I just feel like taking a walk in the sun. Sometimes I create something like a silly drawing, or make up a song. Sometimes I feel like calling a friend for a deep conversation, or visiting with an old relative, or even enjoy a moment of silence. The list goes on, but whatever it is, it rejuvenates me and makes me feel alive. God gave us hearts and minds to use and cherish. I don’t want mine getting rusty.

What makes your soul truly happy? Don’t be afraid to find yourself. I feel like we get lost in the world of “To Dos” instead of enjoying our story. Enjoy your story.

P.S.- Recently I’ve been into making fabric flowers and headbands…I will post pictures soon!

Ladies Ladies Ladies

I know i've been gone for a while, but once you hear this you will forget the seperation anxiety you have experienced being away from me. Ok, you NEED to check this out. Polyvore.com You will thank me. It's like a giant mall where you can create your own outfits from shoes & accessories to makeup. I LOVE IT. After you create your outfit it tells you where you can purchase it and oh my me...it's wonderful. I might post some of my creations on here for funzies. Do this and once you have...i'm sure i'll be back on here blogging every minute of my little life.

I love birthdays

My bday was off the chain ya'll. I woke up and Chance had made me breakfast ANNNNDDD bought me donuts. He knows how to please his big girl. After breakfast he had a whole day planned out for us. I'm so spoiled...my husband treats me like a princess...for realszies. He is the most unselfish, sweet, sweet human I have ever met. I feel sorry for anyone who's not married to him. Anyway, we went to a movie, dinner, shopping...even had a pomegranate mojito. That’s just how I roll. ANNNDDD, I wasn't sad this birthday!!!!!!! After every birthday I get like weirded out sad because I HATE getting older. Like HATE it. I should probably go to therepy because of it. But every birthday I have had in the last 24 years had been wonderful. I've always had wonderful family and friends to make me feel loved. And this one was just as special.

We went to Cheesecake Factory, and then went and saw Revolutionary Road. It was really good, but really depressing. Not a great birthday movie.







Here are some of my gifts…I told you I’m spoiled.

















AND...My new buddy...the IPhone 3G

Prayer Request

Hey everyone, first of all…thank you so much for your birthday wishes, it seriously made my day! It was a WONDERFUL birthday and good friends, sweet family and delicious food made my heart happy and my tummy full. Too full. Anyway, it the mist of the birthday fun there was one thing that got our spirits down. Around 12pm just when we were getting ready to leave, Chance and I got a knock on our door. It was a young Hispanic lady asking for the prior tenant. When we told her they had moved and we were the new tenants…she proceeded to tell us that the person who was living there before us was a “bad person.” Apparently this guy was using and selling drugs AND not only that…shot himself in the arm one time at the home. She went on and on of other things that freaked me out and then said, “well I hope you’re safe here, God bless.”

Uhhh??? Excuse me? I immediately called our landlord and she told me that she could have SWORN she told me about the activities that went on inside the home.

No, she had not..

I was hoping she would say that the lady must have been high because nothing like that had ever gone on, but she told me it was true.

Ok, now I’m flippin’ out telling Chance we should move and now it makes SENSE why we keep getting mail from INMATES. What the heck. Chance went and talked to the neighbors and they told us what a safe neighborhood it has been except for that “one time.” And of course that ‘one time’ was at OUR HOME. I would’ve never have thought that something like that would go on here…I mean, we don’t live downtown…we don’t even live in the ghetto…it’s actually a really nice neighborhood.

What I’m asking for is prayer. I’m nervous that more of these people are going to keep coming to this house high and wanting drugs or money or something. We are afraid of the danger that comes with our house being a prior drug house. Chance and I prayed over our house the night we moved in and it immediately felt like home. I don’t want to leave, so please pray for safety over us, all who enter our home and our neighborhood.

I want to make it to my 25th birthday even if I think 25 is super old.

Professionally Thrifted

It's weird being me

If you lived inside of my brain…you would be weirded out. Not like, “oh this is so cool & trendy weird” More like, “this is weird, get me outta this brain weird.” I like my brain though. It’s definitely a party in my head everyday. It’s probably the favoritest part of myself that God designed…not my heart (which is oh so loving) but my brain. Don’t get freaked out, I’m not the kinda weird that’s like “she’s gonna murder me weird” or “she’s definitely schizophrenic weird and wants to kill my baby” but the kinda weird that’s like “she’s not a normal person weird.” Just want to make sure we’re clear on that.

I always think about things that might happen, or could happen and even things that could never happen…I think about those too. Whenever I’m in a crowd, I study it, I’ve always been that way. Last night I was at Club Fred with Chance and I was thinking…

“What do I feel right now? Who am I? Like seriously…who’s anyone? What’s with this guy over here…is he real? He looks real. But the fact that he’s wearing dark sunglasses in a night club makes me think he’s probably not real. Yep, Not real. He’s a fake, he’s an actor. Am I on the Truman show? Am I Truman…yep…I’m Truman.
No you idiot…you’re not Truman…you just think you are because you watched it last week.”
(a couple walks by)

“Oh I like her outfit…wish I could wear those jeans, but ever since I gained weight I can’t wear jeans like that. But I can wear this skirt…I look good in this skirt. Thanks God for giving me my life. I like it. Oh wait…I like her necklace, it looks good on her…do I like this girl? Am I gay? I wonder what it would feel like to be gay…her boyfriend’s cute…he’s a cutie pototie. Ewww that’s what Rosey O’Donnell would say. She’s gay. I would have never guessed. I should probably get gay-dar. Did I miss The Office? Is it on tonight? Damn, I missed it. Her boyfriend is cute, but I love chance…DUH I love Chance, why do I insist on looking at other people? I’m such a perv.”

Then I look at Chance.

“He’s so sexy, I wonder if we are gonna have cute kids? Probably cute, but they‘ll be hairy like us. We’re pretty hairy. This Madori Sour is good. This song is good, it makes me want to run through fields with Chance. Somewhere in France (picturing fields in France with Chance), wow…I didn’t expect this band to be good. I wonder what I would look like as a dog? This Madori Sour is sooo good.”

This is inside my brain for about 5 seconds, and no...I'm not a drug addict.

Picture This

Here's a picture of our new place. I posted a few more pictures on facebook, but if you want to see more than that, you are just gonna have to come over and hang out with me.

And we're Connected.

Chance and I have been in our new home for a week now, and it’s been great. The only thing that hasn’t been great is the fact that it took a week for AT&T to connect our internet. Don’t they know I HAVE TO BLOG?! I was dry heaving all week because I was so lost without cyber world, and I’m ok admitting that. Now I’m back and I’m ready to enjoy some one on one time with Suz (my laptop).

This new move represents a fresh start for me, and for Chance as well. The past five months were like a roller coaster, but now that we are back in our own place things can start happening in a more organized manner (hopefully). I was reading my past posts and I realized I talked about a LOT of things I was gonna do, or started to do and then stopped. and I got really sad. I realized that I was trying to find something to focus on other than the problems in front of me I needed to deal with at the time. I think that’s why everything I was trying to do was failing. I wanted to start my own business, but then we couldn’t because of funds and time and of course…stress of our existing photography business, I was vegetarian for 2 months and then got so depressed I stopped and gained about 20 pounds, I was suppose to start training at the gym and didn’t go because I couldn’t motivate myself. Many things were spinning around me and I couldn’t keep up. Well things are looking like they are coming full circle, God always gives you a breather.…Chance and I have worked things out and now there HOPEFULLY will be some normalcy to our life. We are in our new home, which is so nice and we FINALLY are making schedules for ourselves and our business. YES…I’m STILL trying to get a new business in order, and YES I'm still trying to eat healthy, but this time I have a clear head and a better heart, so I finally feel better about the things I start. Thank you to friends who have been there, I can’t wait to kiss your faces and HANG OUT!!!!!!

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